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 Across the wasteland of commitments that I am devoted to keeping I watch you from a distance Unable to touch Denied the joy of your kiss Never to know the ecstasy of joining together our two bodies as one Phantom memories act as flint and stone Coaxing to life a bright white fire burning with steady dancing flames As dreams and fantasies of what might have been dance and spark in its incandescent core And douse the fire until it roars as a blaze of passion But the winds of what must be blow until the smoke fills my senses Shaping a realization and a reminder just as a small irritant forms a pearl in the center of an oyster This p

Out of My Private Asylum Here in my private asylum I hide in plain sight of everyone around Because I fear to reveal the weakness within For I know "THEY" will somehow use it against me Therefore I secrete myself within Just as squirrels secreting nuts in a hollow tree trunk     Like a hermit crab I draw inside my shell           To protect my too soft, too vulnerable self Like a hand touching a searing hot flame      I flinch            I recoil                 I draw back I retreat within myself Building up the walls of this asylum Until I feel that I am hidden away enough Until I feel that I have built up energy enou

Someone the other day asked me, Do you still think of her often What could I say to that What would I say if she was standing before me Do I think of you? Does a person who is drowning think of the air that they long for Does a starving person think of food? Does a man stuck in a fox hole        in the middle of the battle                   not take a moment to think of his loved ones left behind at home It's hard to say just when one thinks of someone they love and miss so much It's hard to say just when one "thinks" of such beauty         or of the touches of such emotions It's hard to name an exact moment when I remember

Behind Stormy Eyes Just behind your eyes Flutters the chaos of your heart The desire of your deepest hopes and dreams The actuality of your fears and your pains Hidden behind the stubborn mask of a beautiful smile Shrouded by cursory answers, “I’m okay”, “I’m fine”     Rooted in the longing to move on and be whole again Watered by the hidden tears cried during times no one can see A blooming, whirling, swirling storm of heart-ache that weighs upon you Holding you back from healing Muting the song of love written by your proclamation of true love Restraining the shards of a broken spirit from knittin

Working to mend the pieces of the shattered and broken people Scattered across the floor; Striving to help find the ones who’ve become lost within themselves Lifting up those who don't think they're worth anything any more. People with burning secrets People protecting lies People who can't face themselves Or the pain of poisonous relationship ties Scattered, shattered fragments The ruins of lost and broken Souls The empty shadows, of empty people Walking around With cavernous emotional holes Trying to help heal so many people Seeking to help them find A Sense of Worth A Chance at New birth A Way to renew body, spirit

Just Out of Reach To hunger for something And to have it be within sight And yet still out of reach To long for a touch Or to hear a voice To yearn To ache To crave To thirst for a cool drink As rain runs down the other side of the glass But to know that you cannot reach it. To know you cannot touch To know you cannot have To know that you never will achieve That which is just out of reach… This is the greatest yearning They say “It is better to have loved and lost, then to never have loved at all!!” But what about “To have love, and never being able to allow it to show.” What about never being ab

Just Breathe… Breath is life… to live is to breath…. A yoga student recently quoted her yoga teacher as saying, “Breathing is the first thing you do when you come into the world, and it is the last thing you will give up or do before you depart from it.” I heard this quote recently and it got me thinking about the importance of breathing in our life… so I went to the scriptures to see and hear what God’s word says about breathing… In Hebrew the word "Ruah" means wind, breath, or mind. In Greek the word pneuma, is the noun that translates as wind or breath but it is connected to God’s creative

It is very tiresome to feel like a vending machine all the time To feel like the only reason people listen to you or tolerate your presence is because they recognize in you gifts and abilities that they may need in their life, at some time… It is very tiresome to feel like a vending machine all the time To feel like people around you look at you, at your position in life; To feel like people watch you and make decisions based on assumptions about who you are and what you have to offer them It is very tiresome to feel like a vending machine all the time To feel the disappointment when people around you find that you don’t have

It is truly amazing what you hear when you take the time when you spend the energy when you make the decision To listen When you stop your mouth when you stop the sound when you stop the noise that we use to surround ... To surround and to drown out something we aren't even sure is there It's amazing what we can hear When we listen It's amazing how the room changes When we listen Shhhhhhhhh We put out our hand Do you hear what I hear? We hold our breath We hold our body at rest And as far as we are concerned Time stands still Until we hear, what we hoped, or feared, or weren’t sure We would hear Until we hear th

 I'll be a soft place for you to land I'll catch you as you fall, I'll open my arms as I strive to save your soul. I shall breathe ever lasting love into your heart. I shall be your light as I share ever lasting grace in this world. I will give you the sun and then the stars. As I cradle your wounds, As I embrace your past, Taking in all the things that haunt you. I shall shine upon you with the light of forgiveness, Washing away any and all things that fill you with hurt or shame. I will pour over you the very power of love, The very spark of new life I shall breath into you That you may feel again what you that which you th